I've been getting extremely fed up with the woman I call my mother these past few days.
She's becoming exceedingly clingy, and she really doesn't want me to go to UW. Which only makes me want to go ever more (that's if I get in, which is a small chance). She keeps telling all her friends to not let their daughters run too far away for college, and to keep them close because daughters are good and are the only ones who understand them. I understand her, perfectly well, but that doesn't mean I want to stay in the Bay Area for the rest of my life. She's pretty much dead set against me going to UW. Whenever I even mention it (even if it's not to her, I may be on the phone talking about it), she bursts out protesting against me going because it's too far and too expensive.
She's so unreasonable and has no common sense whatsoever. She makes her life harder than it has to be, and then she blames it on the rest of the family and how "we don't love her."
I'm so sick of my parents' relationship with each other as well. Their silence and fighting is wearing down on me, and it's another reason why I want to go far away to college. And once I leave, all hell may break loose back at home because my brother doesn't give a shit.
And while I'm at it, I'm really tired of my mom verbally, even indirectly, abusing me. When we were hiking 2 days ago, her friend said something about me (I forget what), and my mom responded with, "It's because her skin is bad." And by the way, my skin is not bad. My mom's the only one who thinks that. And she gets bigger and more pimples than I do, and she's 48! I by no means have clear skin, but I rarely get pimples. My skin isn't dry or oily. Okay my forehead is oily, but everyone's got a T-zone. My skin is great. I'm happy with it. And when she keeps talking about how bad it is, it gets on my nerves. Whenever something happens, such as I get a sunburn or one day my skin is a little drier, she'll blame it on my "bad skin condition." WHAT THE FUCK.
Sigh. But I still love my mom no matter what. It's like a love-hate relationship.